Monday, October 23, 2006

Hollywood in the Sky


I stumble

Tongue-tied to the alter of my

Opinions. Reaching feudally for a god

I will never know, mastering only

My simple logic, I manage but a few odd

Words:

Is this why we toil?

Caught inexplicably between hopes still

Begging for fulfillment and unfulfilled

Dreams wishing for their final resting

Place, I consider the withering seeds I’ve sown

Year after year, day after day.

Endless in their return, virgin in

Their awakening, they wave anxiously

In the breeze, full of mindless chaff

Expecting to be set adrift with the other

Fallen leaves of Eden, bound

For another unsuspecting generation of

Idyllic wanderers.

Are they all lost in their own salvation

These creatures of capitalizm’s Christ?

Theirs is a wilderness without bushes that

Burn, without mountains that bear truth,

With plagues of their own making and

With a holy of holies where god no

Longer lives.

How I wish for one of God’s mirrors

To reflect his glory

How I hope for one of God’s songs

To sing the praises

Of their creator. I imagine somewhat faintly

His Lake of contentment rippling Quiet

Waves of peace toward my

Isolated, iconoclastic hardened heart.

I am lost in the place where so many

Are found. I am tired in the place

Where so many have rested. I fight

Like Jacob did his Angel when so

Many have simply seen their God.

Anxious, but burdened with doubt, I whisper sad

Nothings to no one, for no reason that I can

Think of, to anyone who

Can understand the faint echoes that

Struggle to escape from my soul.

The alter of opinion begs for a high priest of

Understanding and for the sacrament of

Knowledge.

I sacrifice nothing yet all I have.

This then is hell.

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